Sunday, November 25, 2007

LOSER, LOSER...LOSER

Yesterday i had the honour of attending a lecture by the vice-president of isckon (hare krishna association) mr. mukund das.he used to be a student of IIT-BOMBAY....he left IIT one day when he read bhagwad gita in his library. he discussed about mahabharatha.....though i didnt agree with god being the ultimate supersoul and all , i enjoyed his life story and one liners.....

here are some of the quotes:



  • one of the audience member asked him why radha's name comes before krishna..............

his reply: " do you say gentleman and ladies...or sajno aur deviyon?



  • how will a dog medidate?..." bow bow bow.....main gyan mein hoon.........bow bow bow"

  • do your duty and don't care about the results......this was the only serious quote

spiritual indeed!!!!...i cameout and was suddenly feeling very spiritual.....i just wanted to discuss spiritualism.but the people there were least bothered. they came out and the bullshit began.......
"bhabhi humhe abhi prasad milega na..........isiliye maine aaj khana nahin banaya"


"arre bhabhi aapko pata chala,bandana ke ghar pe naya sofaset aaya.....bahut paisewale hain na bhabhi."


"arre aap toh kafi patle ho gaye....gym jaate ho na"


i thought i should join some school going girls and some other aunties....


" yeh dress bahut accha hain....kahan se silaya"


"aunty shanti nagar mein woh tailor hain na"


"arre usne itna accha dance kiya tha....phir bhi vote out ho gayi"


bullshit...i tried to listened to the school boys


" kal wwe dekha??? Kane ne kaise mara na....."


" batista mast hain na"


i was feeling so sick. i wanted to get the hell out of there. i tried to stand as if i'm involved in the conversation ( to make my parents happy....they feel very happy when they see me in a group). Then for a few minutes i was left alone with one of the loudmouths and who has done her phd in gossiping......


she asked me.."hmmmm...everyone here is talking........i haven't seen you open your mouth"


i said "well aunty.....i would love to talk something related to this lecture...but all of them are talking about some other stuff"


" ohh well...so what dear......hmmm you don't like friendship??"


"of course i like friendship"


" oh but dear you are not talking with anyone.....so i thought........"


"ohh thats because i feel bored talking about the regular gossip....."


" ohh so what you can pretend that you like it........you know sushmita otherwise what people will think???.......that sushmi is a very dumb girl........and some people here think that you are very arrogant"


" oh really???....but aunty thats their opinion......thats not who i am"


"but don't you care about others opininions about you?"


"well no... look i'm not arrogant....its just that i enjoy talking about books music....etc rather than talking about abhi-ash wedding"


"ohhh..well looks like someone is calling me....before going an advice.....if you don't ACT you are gone........you'll never succeed..........you have to play the game whether you like it or not......you'll still be here girl.....the others will go very far....so far that you cannot see them....better change now than later........why is it hard for you to be like other girls of your age?"


i'm a loser....i'll never succeed.........i don't have the skills to play the game......damn i'm in deep shit


holy shit......i was lying on my bed at 12 am and laughed......she said the truth..the truth that i wished was a lie....the truth is we have to lie...PRETEND

18 comments:

Mandar said...

well...no comments on the rest of the post its quite true....

but, ever tried reading bhaktivedanta swami prabhupada??
if not try reading him and tell me oyur comments....

June Nandy Chaudhuri said...

Good blog.

First let me tell you the Freddie Mercury(Queen)magnum Opus is one of my favourite too and I've written a blog on it,(Peep there if u've time).

Secondly,I'll post another of my favourite song by Gnat King Cole.

"Pretend you're happy when you're blue
It isn't very hard to do
And you'll find happiness without an end
Whenever you pretend

Remember anyone can dream
And nothing's bad as it may seem
The little things you haven't got
Could be a lot if you pretend

You'll find a love you can share
One you can call all your own
Just close your eyes, she'll be there
You'll never be alone

And if you sing this melody
You'll be pretending just like me
The world is mine, it can be yours, my friend
So why don't you pretend?"

AbodhBalok said...

The song is so right, yet so wrong....

Thw word is not pretend definately

Sushmita said...

@mandar
no i haven't read his work......will do it soon

@june
great song
of course i give fake smiles and say "ohhhhh aisa hua??" and all that crap........but these people are so cheap....backstabbing is their staple diet.....they can live without food but they cannot leave without gossip and backstabbing....don't know how can i pretend
and by the way....i have read that post a long ago....'bohemian banterings' if i'm not wrong.........

@walker
you are right.....but its the damn truth

Sushmita said...

@june
pretending in small matters is allright....i can pretend that i like to go to temple with my mom even though i hate it.......but what about pretending in professinal world?

Sushmita said...

@mandar
just read the conversation between allen ginsberg and swami prabhupada.....jesus hes too good...will write a blog relating to his thoughts after my presentations get over.......thanks mr.genius

mostly harmless said...

I think what you need is some goal. Ask yourself what you would like to do. Each one of us has an imagination. Somewhere you might want to be.. anything. Then try to achieve that goal. You will not be bored anymore. You will not even notice the existence of the people you feel the need to entertain right now. And even if they somehow manage to disturb you... it will not hurt you as much as it is hurting you now.

About the goal... all I can say is it is easier said then done. You have to be brutally honest with yourself. If you think that you want to go and see Mt. Everest and it will be a good experience for you... do it.

mostly harmless said...

What you feel is the hopelessness when you read "The catcher in the rye"

Sushmita said...

yes you are right about people who really don't matter.......but what about dealing with people who are necessary for us to achieve the goal......like i'm working in a group and i work like a dog n want the same from others........but they are least bothered......they are unprofessinal and backstabbers...so how will i deal with them?.......my efforts are wasted...

mostly harmless said...

Here is a choice you are going to have to make. Obviously you are working in the group because that is the only way to achieve your objective (earn money, complete a project/product whatever). On the other hand the people in the group are not professional. I think as long as they don't come in the way of you and your objective it is fine. But if they are blocking you than its time to change things. Find another group maybe. I will not "pretend" to know the correct choice. :( . Atleast with you.

Sushmita said...

ya....there is always some choice...it hides somewhwre but its there......

viv said...

"Pretend you're happy when you're blue
It isn't very hard to do
And you'll find happiness without an end
Whenever you pretend

I guess its all in the mind.. and the efforts we are ready to put in to remain happy.. Yes we need to pep ourselves up everyday.. everymin...

Though pretending seems a negative word, it can help to learn to like things.. to enjoy things u do not like by instinct..

And is'nt it the ability to controll our basic instincts that differentiates us from other animals..?? The ability to do something, not coz we enjoy it but coz it is right.

we are what we think..

viv said...

oops... that was LONG..!!

Apologies..

Sushmita said...

viv,
you are right....sometimes things can be so funny......its the way we see it......like regarding this blog i could have enjoyed the futile gossip.....its like poison but i could have enjoyed it

Manish said...

my late comments:
S Khadke seems to give some original and agreeable piece of wisdom,...the rule never is pretention..in my group ateast u dont have to.In fact in the other groups also, by not doing any pretentions u may get thme to mould themselves the way u are. pretentious people may be of weak character and tend to change over to the "needs of time", as they call it. ur offbeat ways may get them to follow u. be discreet , polilte, most important honest n sincere. their are numerous examples to follow..i gueess N R Narayanmurthy kinda ppl...
pppl who are little ugly or below avg looking..n are sincere and honest about it!(there's one of the clues to locate them)keep in such company..u said so coz the general Mumbaiya lifestyle is like that, i feel so.
{{I hope i am able to follow my own peice of advise ;-)..hahah }}

Sushmita said...

@ mannu
I agree with you

Sandeep said...

i would recommend to read "Games People Play" by Eric Berne...its just 100 pages but encompases everything that u talked about

madman said...

awesome.

naice naice

ISKCON,
i went to one lecture around my college cuz they promised kheer ( their kheer is very delicious )

plus I luve the ISKCON temple on janmashtmi's

it simply puts more trust into my notion that the cool hindu god's ( LORD SHIVA and LORD KRISHNA ) we at some level hippies