SORRY MR.VALMIKI

Like every Indian daughter, I had my 'Ramanyana narration' nights. My mother used to say:

" Sushmita, this story is of sacrifice , courage, obedience and selflessness. "

At that time I was fascinated by the selfless characters. But as I travelled more and walked more roads of life I realised that some parts are unacceptable to me.

Firstly Mr. Dashrata. He is straight from the bollywood masala flicks.Yes when someone saves your life you do feel that you have to pay him back. Thats human. But he's so emotional that he gave Kaikeyi some boons! Ok he gave them.

Now Mrs. Kaikeyi asks him to send his beloved son to exile.

Ok she was cunning. But why blame her. Mr. Dashratha could have said no.I really don't understand this.

And Mr.Rama. Agreed that you should listen to your parents. But every individual has a right to live the way he wants. When this right is raped you can't just sit. Fourteen years exile is not a joke.

Here I'm not saying that Ram should have fought for the kingdom.

He could have left the kingdom and lived somewhere else,the way he wanted.

And Mr.Ram is not a very good husband. He asked Sita to leave Ayodhya because of 'society pressures.'

That's a shame. How can you send away your wife just because some people said something?

He is concerned about others opinions about him and Sita.His actions are not at all heroic.

And Mrs. Sita. You could have been more independent.Your life shouldn't just revolve around your husband.I would've divorced him.

LETTER TO MY FUTURE DAUGHTER

I have this weird idea of writing a letter to my future teenage daughter. i would call her sushmita.Here i go.........

Dear sushmita,

Today is your 16th birthday. on this occasion i would like to share some things with you as a mother. now i'm not going to lay down any rules and regulations and say "FOLLOW THEM OR DIE." Your mother is different from others. I'm not going to tell you how to live. who am i after all? Just because i'm your mother doesn't mean that i own you. you are not an object.

Firstly, i have seen that you are quite shy.Well there is nothing wrong in that. But what bothers me is that you have this godzilla sized inferiority complex. why sushmita? Now i'm not going to say that' how can you love others when you don't love yourself' and other quotes. i want to say onething....close your eyes and say "i deserve respect..why should'nt i?" and let me tell you one thing. This respect cannot be earned from anyone. Respect is a very important word in life. Never forget this word.When you start respecting yourself ,the word 'possible' which was your irregular guest starts coming everyday to your house. Don't you want to welcome your guest? now you might hesitate opening the door because when you peep through the hole of the door you get scared: this guest brings an unwelcomed guest: responsibility

Its unwelcomed but you can't ignore the guest. Take responsibility of your life. Try to keep your life's complain box empty.I think life is pretty impartial. It gives all of us a set of arms and ammuntions to fight the war of life. There are doors of opportunities. Its only the deaf who can't hear the knock on the door, the dumb who don't open it due to fear of unwelcomed guests like changes and the blind who hear the knock but they don't open it because they can't see the door.

open the door sushmita.

Also one thing that no one has told you. Your confidence should not flow because you have talent....your confidence should come from the fact that you deserve to walk on this earth!!! you have the right to breathe this air.....you have the right to live dear....Don't let anyone take away this right from you. As oprah winfrey said ," you are worthy because you are born."

To be continued if i feel like writing this kind of crap again... My God! how can any sane person write such stuff?

LOSER, LOSER...LOSER

Yesterday i had the honour of attending a lecture by the vice-president of isckon (hare krishna association) mr. mukund das.he used to be a student of IIT-BOMBAY....he left IIT one day when he read bhagwad gita in his library. he discussed about mahabharatha.....though i didnt agree with god being the ultimate supersoul and all , i enjoyed his life story and one liners.....

here are some of the quotes:

• one of the audience member asked him why radha's name comes before krishna..............

his reply: " do you say gentleman and ladies...or sajno aur deviyon?

• how will a dog medidate?..." bow bow bow.....main gyan mein hoon.........bow bow bow"
  


• do your duty and don't care about the results......this was the only serious quote

spiritual indeed!!!!...i cameout and was suddenly feeling very spiritual.....i just wanted to discuss spiritualism.but the people there were least bothered. they came out and the bullshit began.......
"bhabhi humhe abhi prasad milega na..........isiliye maine aaj khana nahin banaya"

"arre bhabhi aapko pata chala,bandana ke ghar pe naya sofaset aaya.....bahut paisewale hain na bhabhi."

"arre aap toh kafi patle ho gaye....gym jaate ho na"

i thought i should join some school going girls and some other aunties....

" yeh dress bahut accha hain....kahan se silaya"

"aunty shanti nagar mein woh tailor hain na"

"arre usne itna accha dance kiya tha....phir bhi vote out ho gayi"

bullshit...i tried to listened to the school boys

" kal wwe dekha??? Kane ne kaise mara na....."

" batista mast hain na"

i was feeling so sick. i wanted to get the hell out of there. i tried to stand as if i'm involved in the conversation ( to make my parents happy....they feel very happy when they see me in a group). Then for a few minutes i was left alone with one of the loudmouths and who has done her phd in gossiping......

she asked me.."hmmmm...everyone here is talking........i haven't seen you open your mouth"

i said "well aunty.....i would love to talk something related to this lecture...but all of them are talking about some other stuff"

" ohh well...so what dear......hmmm you don't like friendship??"

"of course i like friendship"

" oh but dear you are not talking with anyone.....so i thought........"

"ohh thats because i feel bored talking about the regular gossip....."

" ohh so what you can pretend that you like it........you know sushmita otherwise what people will think???.......that sushmi is a very dumb girl........and some people here think that you are very arrogant"

" oh really???....but aunty thats their opinion......thats not who i am"

"but don't you care about others opininions about you?"

"well no... look i'm not arrogant....its just that i enjoy talking about books music....etc rather than talking about abhi-ash wedding"

"ohhh..well looks like someone is calling me....before going an advice.....if you don't ACT you are gone........you'll never succeed..........you have to play the game whether you like it or not......you'll still be here girl.....the others will go very far....so far that you cannot see them....better change now than later........why is it hard for you to be like other girls of your age?"

i'm a loser....i'll never succeed.........i don't have the skills to play the game......damn i'm in deep shit

holy shit......i was lying on my bed at 12 am and laughed......she said the truth..the truth that i wished was a lie....the truth is we have to lie...PRETEND

APPRECIATION

This is an excerpt from marlon brando's famous interview with Larry King:

KING: You do not miss being on a stage?

BRANDO: No, God no.

KING: Why not?

BRANDO: Because it's three hours of blood, sweat, and tears every night. There's nothing to do but blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

KING: Oh, don't diminish that.

BRANDO: What?

KING: Audience.

BRANDO: I don't diminish Shakespeare. I can recite Shakespeare from morning until night until I put you to sleep. I love Shakespeare but I don't like -- I'm not nuts about going to the theater. So often in the past I've gone to the theater and been so bored.

KING: How about working in it though? I mean first of all you get applause.

BRANDO: I'm bored.

KING: Applause.

BRANDO: Who cares about applause? If I get applause from my dog, if I get applause from my children that's enough, God do I have to turn into an applause junkie in order to feel good about myself?

KING: When you started...

BRANDO: How about you? Do you need applause? Larry, that was a great show.

KING: I need, yes, I need acceptance.



so the question: do we need apprectation???????????????

well let me be honest...... few years ago....it mattered very much....

i was invisible to everyone including my parents......i was treated like a piece of shit wherever i went......but one day one of my friends came to me and said "you are just underrating yourself.....just believe in yourself.......sky is the limit for you"................

and suddenly i was flying in the sky.....................................

i felt as if i was walking in a desert and searching for water and finally i got some..................



CHILDREN AND YOUNGSTERS SHOULD BE APPRECIATED OTHERWISE DEPRESSION, DRUG ADDICTION ETC ETC WILL BE YOUR THEIR UNWELCOME GUESTS............

but what about adults?????????????????????????????????????????????????????

do they need appreciation??????

walker asked me a question.............why do u create or produce something????????

i create because thats what i'm born for..........THATS WHY I'M LIVING........TO CREATE...............what others think about my creation is not important for me..............if they think that its good....then i would be happy..............but if they think that its not good............then i would take their advice and improve it.........but if they are people whose hobby is criticizing others then i'll be deaf to them.


I BREATHE BECAUSE I WANT TO EXIST........I CREATE BECAUSE I WANT TO LIVE..........

I WRITE BLOGS NOT FOR APPRECIATION BUT TO KNOW WHAT PEOPLE THINK OF THE SUBJECT...............

I WILL ANSWER IN THE CLASS NOT TO IMPRESS THE TEACHER BUT TO LET HER KNOW WHAT MY THOUGHTS ARE............

I WILL WORK HARD ON MY PRESENTATIONS NOT TO GET APPLAUSE FROM THE AUDIENCE BUT TO SHARE WITH THEM THE KNOWLEDGE THAT I'VE ACQUIRED............

I'M DIFFERENT NOT BECAUSE I WANT TO HEAR PRAISES LIKE " HEY YOU ARE DIFFERENT FROM OTHERS.....I LIKE THAT"............I'M DIFFERENT BECAUSE ITS MY RELIGION..................



I'LL GIVE AWAY MONEY IN CHARITY NOT TO HAVE MY INTERVIEW ON POPULAR NEWS CHANNELS AND TO BE POPULAR AMONG THE SOCIALITES AND TO HEAR PRAISES FROM PAGE THREE REPORTERS......................................................................................................I'LL GIVE CHARITY BECAUSE I UNDERSTAND HOW IT FEELS WHEN YOU DONT KNOW WHETHER YOU'LL TASTE ANOTHER PIECE OF BREAD IN YOUR LIFE....................

my fingers itch 2 feel d keys of d keyboard.......

my legs become restless to conqur d stage..........

my ears like to hear d symphony of applause...........

.but if i dont hear d symphony............

i'll hear the symphony of my principles, my heartbeat, my attitude..........

and will listen to sushmita.............and nothing else matters

i have seen in my own life that if you dont care about how PEOPLE will respond and just do it for yourself...........then your performance reaches another level altoghether........

whats the difference??????

its the difference between character and personality............

its the difference between keating and roark...........

p.s. tommorow i have a presentation.....the person who is going to supervise them doesnt have any clue about what she teaches or what the students say.......she'll not give a damn about what i'll speak............the audience is busy playing tic tac toe......i'm not going to give 100 percent to the presentation.........but i'll give 250 percent........i'm going to get up at 4 in the morning to practice...................damn some people are born weirdos............................

LIFE'S NOT ALWAYS HUNKY DORY........

Firstly i would like to thank my friend Mandar for suggesting this book. The book lets you feel the pain of the defeated hero: the hero who endured the biggest obstacles to fulfill his dream but saw that dream evaporate.............in front of his own eyes.... today one of my friends was telling me about a family who could have had it all: but simply could'nt. the family was going through a financial crisis.....but they worked hard and things started looking up.........one of the children got a job........but when he was coming back from his office he met with an accident.....and he DIED due to sick service of the municipality hospital.

sometimes we think that this is OUR time.......but suddenly something drastic happens and our dreams are washed away by ocean's deadly currents..............people say its DESTINY........i think that it just happens because it might not be the right time..........maybe you have to WAIT.............there is a time for everything.REMEMBER TIME IS GOD.

There are so many defeated heroes in our world.....people forget them.......they say that they are losers......i would say one thing to those people:

WINNING IS NOT HAVING YOUR PHOTOGRAPH ON THE FRONT PAGE OF TIMES OF INDIA AND BOMBAY TIMES BECAUSE YOU ATTENDED A HOTSHOT PARTY

WINNING IS NOT THAT GOLD MEDAL OR THE PRIZE THAT YOU KEEP IN YOUR SHOWCASE...............

WINNING IS NOT WHAT POSITION YOU HAVE ACHIEVED IN YOUR ORGANIZATION.............

WINNING IS NOT HOW MANY CARS YOU HAVE IN YOUR GARAGE....................

WINNING IS NOT HOW MANY MAID-SERVANTS YOU EMPLOY............

WINNING IS THE NUMBER OF HOURS YOU SPEND STUDYING WHEN THE OTHERS WERE WATCHING INDIAN IDOL..........

WINNING IS THE AMOUNT OF TIME YOU SPENT TYPING 1 MILLION WORDS WHILE THE OTHERS WERE CUTTING-COPYING AND PASTING.....

WINNING IS THE INDOMITABLE STRENGTH THAT A PERSON SHOWS TO STAND AGAINST THE WORLD'S SCUM WHEN THE OTHERS JUST GETAWAY THROUGH FLATTERY AND THE WORLD'S FAVOURITE WINE (BRIBE)..........

BUT PEOPLE ONLY SEE THE RESULTS...........SANTIAGO IS A LOSER BECAUSE AT THE END OF THE DAY HE DID'NT CATCH ANYTHING................

BUT SANTIAGO REMAINS A HERO IN MY EYES............WHAT ABOUT YOU????????

EVERYONE IS A PROSTITUTE

" anyone who lives in their own world are mad. i mean people who are different from others"

"like you?"

"you have einstein, saying that there was no time or space, just a combination of two.or columbus, insisting that on the otherside of the world lay not an abyss but a continent. or Edmund Hillary, convinced that a man could reach the top of the everest. or the Beatles, who created an entirely different sort of music and dressed like people from other time. those people and thousands of others all lived in their own world.


That was a small conversation from the book " veronica decides to die" by my hero paulo coelho. the so called 'normal people' may find it very funny, certainly not me nor i'm in any way 'normal.' well what does being normal mean??? being normal is doing all the bullshit just because the whole society does it. being normal is playing the game even though you know that you are not enjoying it. i hate playing those games.....i have been criticized by many people because of my unwillingness to mingle with NORMAL PEOPLE. let me tell you i'm not against socilaizing but i can't talk nonsense. i would rather talk about books or music or a good movie.....not about abhi-ash wedding or indian idol results...that doesn't interest me at all. that's the way i'm. i cannot give fake smiles and say that i'm enjoying the conversation.when i feel like pulling my hair. when i go out what i see is that almost 98% of the people on this earth are prostitutes.....prostitutes do what they do even if they despise the work because they need money.....in the same way we act normal to" fit in." Thats what paulo coelho is talking about in the above conversation....every legend had something different kind of madness in him. but these eccentricities are what made him/her a legend.
i would love to be remembered as a weird, mad and an individualistic person rather than being known as a 'normal' person.....because i don't want to regret on my death bed during my last breath that i've spent my whole life thinking about others opinions about me and losing my powerful right:

TO DO THINGS MY WAY

The song "my way" by FRANK SINATRA says it all:

And now, the end is here

And so I face the final curtain

My friend, I'll say it clear

I'll state my case,

of which I'm certain

I've lived a life that's full

I traveled each and ev'ry highway

And more, much more than this,

I did it my way

Regrets, I've had a few

But then again, too few to mention

I did what I had to do and saw it through without

exemption

I planned each charted course, each careful step along the

byway

And more, much more than this,

I did it my way

Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew

When I bit off more than I could chew

But through it all, when there was doubt

I ate it up and spit it out

I faced it all and I stood tall

and did it my wayI've loved,

I've laughed and criedI've had my fill,

my share of losing

And now, as tears subside, I find it all so amusing

To think I did all that

And may I say, not in a shy way,

"Oh, no, oh, no, not me, I did it my way

"For what is a man, what has he got?

If not himself, then he has naught

To say the things he truly feels and not the words of one who kneels

The record shows I took the blows and did it my way!

Yes, it was my way

FRANKNESS V/S FLATTERY

Some people say that today more than the obvious talent the most important art required is flattery. well i totally disagree with the statement. it is totally against my principles. i totally believe in the line in the book "jane eyre" by charlotte bronte:

" frankness and rudeness is better than flattery."

but my question is that do we really need flattery as our arms and ammunition when we enter the dog eat dog professional world??????

in the book fountainhead by ayn rand, there are 2 talented architects: peter keating and my hero howard roark. peter keating becomes very popular due to his flattery techniques while roark is more talented than peter but is still unknown!!!!! was flattery the difference????? it might be but i still think that if you work hard and speak when its needed then there is no need of flattery. i experienced this even in my own life: on eof my colleugues is a very sweet talker and so she is liked and appreciated by the whole college. she even takes the credit from her group because this wonderful artistic quality.BUT ALL THIS DOESN'T MEAN THAT I'M AGAINST PARTICIPATION AND MAKING YOUR VOICE HEARD....BUT THERE IS A THIN LINE BETWEEN MAKING UR VOICE HEARD AND SHOUTING....................

NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS I'LL NEVER BOW DOWN TO THIS RULE.....WHAT ABOUT YOU GUYS?????????????????????????????????????

WHERE IS THE NEXT CAMUS?????????????????

Today's world is full of unnecessary hype and overrated "HEROES". well are these people really heroes?? that brings me to the formality.....definition.i dont believe in defining something because when we define something we restrict its scope.but since i have to get some readers i have to define. hero for me is a person who is very comfortable being himself, a person whose legs are pulled by mediocre people because of his"different approach" to life but still fights on and on.but where is originality today???? where are bands like pink floyd and metallica? where are movies like life is beautiful or dirty dozen or great escape??? where is the next bob dylan???. we can't exactly say that there is no creativity in this world. there are surely some guys out there.but my question is can these guys keep their creativity's candle blowing????

ANURAG KASHYAP

this guy has great talent but he is discouraged by media, the law and almost everyone. he is 10 times better than yash chopra or karan johar.he is a legend when it comes to scriptwriting and storytelling.

RABBI SHERGILL

this guy can beat t our indian idols like ABHIJIT SAWANT or SANDEEP ACHARYA on any given day. but does anyone care about such unbelieveble talent????

what about good writers man??? where are books like the alchemist or the cathcher in the rye or the evergreen "the stranger." where is the next ALBERT CAMUS???????????

MISS TOPPER V/S MISS AVERAGE

There were 2 girls...1 was ms.topper n the other was ms.average.Ms topper was an walking encyclopedia while ms. average just passed through the exams with average marks. they both look for a good job in the professinal world. surprisingly ms.topper has a difficulty getting a good job.


THE REASON: THROUGHOUT HER ACADEMIC LIFE MS.TOPPER MEMORIZED GLUT OF DEFINITIONS: 500 MILLION WORDS OF SOMEONELSE'S THOUGHTS!!!!!!!!

All the problems of the world could be settled easily if men were only willing to think. The trouble is that men very often resort to all sorts of devices in order not to think, because thinking is such hard work. - Thomas J. Watson

TORTURE IN D NAME OF EDUCATION !!!!

this weekend i lost my only hope. our professors say dat dey r not concerned about our thoughts.they told us without an ounce of shame that all they want is the same bullshit that is there in the books....what will we do when we enter the professioanl arena where we are expected to have our own views and ideas????? will we quote mr.greenberg n mr.baron when well b asked about our views on organizational behaviour.yes these authors are no doubt are legends but there is a thin line between being inspired by others thoughts and copying others thoughts..........